guy howard

Life-essayist - sitting in California; writing Fact and Fiction, exploring language and  my view from Life's bridge. This  will be about PAINFUL and funny lessons and I will not be shy expressing my thoughts on the world i see.  

A Song for Mary and Steve - A Covid Cost

“Are the stars out tonight, I don’t care if its cloudy or bright 

‘Cause I only have eyes for you, dear.”

 

For months she has stood outside his window, a pane away from the man 

The man a part of her breathing for so many years

They took in air in unison,

built the same dreams

had the same children

lived at the same address

 

Entwine, their lives are entwined

When friends thought of one the other came into consciousness

without bidding, their presence interlocked by time and duration

 

Engulf, their days engulfed one another

built on a promise made, a promise kept

Their lives danced like lightning bugs in each other’s orbit

Sharing “flashes of merriment that were wont to set the table on a roar”

so Shakespeare said, like the twinkling of a million stars spritely filling the dark

 

Engorge, their lives engorged one another

Filling bellies with food or babies

Filling hours with conversation or cuddling

Filling fresh flesh with fine lines, 

age providing character and coveting

They have witnessed time’s progress 

through each other’s eyes and the timbre of their voices

 

Envelop, their lives enveloped one another

Holding hands in movie shows and later, on long walks as old people

In the night his fingers reach out to her breast pulling her in close spoon

for comfort or consumption 

From passion to romance to daily life where

each affirmation is a letter of love sent and received

 

Enswirl, their lives are enswirled by the world

that has built barriers between them

The touch of hands separated by glass

The touch of minds tousled by seas of his confusion

The touch of hearts confused by memories with more presence

than the face that is here today

  

Enforce, their lives broken by enforced isolations

So insurmountable – so resolute

The Corona world surrounds them, batters them, separates them today

So tears and confusion and despair fill eyes so familiar they could be her own

A plaintive plea issues from a voice whose tone harmonizes with her own heart as if emanating from a choir of one

 

What can she do

How can she reach out through glass and rulebooks to hold her man

Her presence reassuring for his anguished mind

 

Through menial labor - washing dishes, she can buy brief time in his embrace

Through work she was not meant for now, she purchases an opportunity to soothe his heart 

with the touch of her real hand and nothing between

 

At night, sitting together in the light of the window

they name stars -- lightning bugs that have travelled with them on this long road together

The night sky – so full of stars in the dark and in their eyes

Enjoy, their lives can be filled with enjoy 

The close of one more day of their forever. They are 

“the stars out tonight.”

 

 

 

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