guy howard

Life-essayist - sitting in California; writing Fact and Fiction, exploring language and  my view from Life's bridge. This  will be about PAINFUL and funny lessons and I will not be shy expressing my thoughts on the world i see.  

You were born -

You were born. Such a simple fact,

could lead almost anywhere including the

historical progress of a millennial.

But that’s not the point.

 

You were born, could lead to tales of the woes and fears

about an infant too soon into the world, yellow and small and fragile.

One who grew into a woman full of charge and purpose

pursuing life adventures without need for a steadying parental hand.

But that is another story.

 

You were born could lead to tales of bright blue eyes cast first

upon a birthing room without capacity to hone in and focus. Blue

crystalline eyes you have used to discover art and reading and dogs and friends.

Eyes that discern colors and puzzle out shapes and problems in unique ways. Eyes

that find their way to the finish of hundreds of books; you used to keep count,

and all the ideas held in those packages.

But those are different tales.

 

You were born and I could regale with stories of laughter and curiosity,

making the world open its doors willingly as you absorbed

without judgement and encouraged without jealousy. Or we could converse about

passages you shouldn’t have had to go through

losing some of your naiveté and aging earlier. Yet, it provided

an opportunity to gain strength and show care and love and nurture

all for a rather low price of admission.

But that is a different show.

 

You were born and we could reflect on the glint in your mother’s eyes, a light

never existing before as she looked at you bundled in some hospital swaddling. Or

our ineptness changing first-time diapers, giving first-time baths, watching

first-time sleep and singing you to first-time napping. Feeding you

with bottle and breast in first-time eating. And marveling as you took over those tasks yourself

at each new stage.

But that is a different progression.

 

You were born and I placed you naked and tender-skinned

against my chest, heart to heart so our rhythms might sync.

I could smell you so tiny. You carried some of your mother’s scent, but

brought a new one, all your own, into the world. Your breath drifting in and out

in easy fashion rustling the hairs of my chest and you content to absorb my warmth.

In that moment all your potentials and possibilities existed and could be contained

between me and a flimsy baby blanket keeping the cool air at bay.

You were born and I…I was reborn.

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